I really need to work on portion size. I feel that is probably one of my biggest problems. A lot of times what looks like one cup is actually way more or 1 Tablespoon is actually 2, etc. So for the first month I am going to weigh and measure what I'm eating so I can get back in to the feel of what a portion size really is. Adding "just a little bit more" is my downfall. It's not just what I'm eating but how much. So my mentality of "just a little more won't hurt me" actually does. It means going over the amounts that are laid out so I can atually eat healthy and loose weigth. I don't plan on doing this once I get rolling becuase it eventually gets set in your head so that you can tell just by looking. it's just about forming a habit and it really does help.
We are also going through our freezers today, rearranging and getting rid of the items we know we won't be eating. It's time for a clean out. We have our garden started and plan on growing a fair bit so it's out with the old to make room for the new. I will admit there are some things in there that I don't even know what they are any mor. It was food at one time but is now freezer burnt or just been in there a litle too long and taste and texture are comprimised. I think the cupboards will be next. We've been working on using up and making meals with what we've had instead of buying more so we don't have a lot left - maybe a few part bags of pasta and some rice and cereal. The cereal we will keep for the grandkids, they will eat it up for us. Most of the items that are left are usuable on our new lifestyle adventure. The fridge however is full of stuff we probably can't have. Jams, sauces, condiments all loaded with sugar. You'd really be surprised at how fast the calories and carbs add up when you start using that stuff. So most of it has to go. If theres only a little left I'll just throw it out. If there's a lot I will pass it on to my daughter just becasue I won't be eaiting it doesn't mean someone else can't.
I'm actually really looking forward to doing this. I've done it before and was having amazing success. I stopped when my son passed away and never, ever started back up. In fact I think I totally went the other way. Food was my way of coping and soothing my heartbreak. Not one of my smartest choices. Then it went as feeling like I deserved to eat all the yummy foods. Low income, horrible health, constant pain. Couldn't afford to go anywhere or do anything. No extra spending money the only thing I really could do was eat and it became my entertainment, my reward and my fun. I mean after all I can't do anything else enjoy, can't take my joy of eating away too. That thinking needs to come to an end. I just need to rewire my brain into realizing that I deserve to be healthy and in less pain and then maybe I'll be able to enjoy doing the things I once did. Food won't be my only source of enjoyment and entertainmnet if I don't let it. Not sure how I'm going to accomplish it becasue those are deep embedded thoughts. Maybe I'll have to try subliminal messaging or something. I don't know but that's another reason I'm starting up the blog again. If am writing here and expressing my thoughts, plans and struggles maybe it will help me talk myself into sticking to it.